Pissed Right Now. Listening To- Nothing...

Hello
The Talk Around NYC- Well at least in my neighborhood, it was that Clinique was giving free makeover, hairstyles, and pictures taken by profesional photographers. Sounded like fun so I went and stood in line for about a half an hour, got some free samples, found out that it was all to enter a Teen Vogue contest, did it anyway, and don't really like the pictures they took, but all in all it was alright.

Life-So, I'm pissed. I thought I was going to have a great day today...but truthfully I felt something in my stomach, that felt like it was telling me this day really wasn't going to be so great. I woke up regular time, and instead of class we had a simple tour of the library. Finished there and walked to Union Square to see how long the line was for the makeover, wasn't too bad and I didnt have much else to do so I did that. Then I walked to Kmart, wiped off the lipgloss the makeup artist put on me (too much for daytime) and returned these plastic containers that I bought yesterday and were broken! While at Kmart I bought my roommate a shelf so she could stop living out of a cardboard box (I asked her and she said she wanted it and would pay me back if I got it, so it wasnt sheer niceness). Walked back to the dorm with the shelf in a box that weighed a ton. I guess around here was were my day started to turn. My plan was to come right back to the dorm and work on things I hadnt finished yet, its now 9pm and I havent started yet.

I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with people telling me their overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with things not working out how I want them to. Overwhelmed with wasting time.... I don't even know.

Ok, things were still going okay, I cleaned, ate, put up pictures on my wall. Then, I'm sitting at my desk and I look down at my extension cord and my lamps plug just flares (like a electrical shock) and then stops, and I try to turn it on and of corse its broken. Oh and my mail finally comes and the text book I've been waiting for and paid $50 for came and WASN'T a text book. It was some "Access Card", that I can do absolutely nothing with. It really sucks though, because the guy who sold it to me made it seem like it really was a textbook, so I wrote him a sobby email, hopefully it will work. Thats not all, "C" got home at 8:30 and told me she is actually going to make a shelf instead of buying one, so my pain was in vain after all.

A neighbor in my dorm, asked me what I did to anger the Gods today, I really dont know. But I'm sorry!

I think I'm on overload right now, which is ashame because I even went home this weekend...

I promise I wont have many posts complaining about my life, but I needed this one.

Fashion-

F**K....You have to be kidding me, as I'm just sitting here writing my blog my [new] mirror just fell off of my door and broke!!!!!!!!!! I'm not even lying right now.

Wearing: shirt w/ a lion on it (thrift store, originally Saks- $15), leggings ($10), black boots (same as before).......to angry to do this right now.

Hello My Name Is: F.M.L.! (Jocelyn)

Rain, Listening To: Kid Cudi "A Kid Named Kudi"

Cloudy in NYC today, you'd be surprised how even in a city like this, with so many people, it still gets pretty quiet on cold rainy days. I finished class at 11:20ish and walked back to my dorm, and am enjoying a little piece of mind at the moment: only person here.

Roommate story- My roommate, who I will refer to as "C", is from Cali. She is really sweet, as well as smart, determined, clean, on-top of her work, you know all of the good roommate qualities =] I'm very lucky! But, of course, everyones a little quirky---> her and her boyfriend have these panda stuffed animals, I almost feel as though i should capitalize panda because they are basically their children. And her boyfriend visits everyday, because he is also attending college in "the big city", and they talk to these pandas like they are babies. So cute & hilarious! I dont think I can say much more on this topic, besides, imagine these too, literally speaking in baby voices to these panda stuffed animals, 24/7, (I think I'm starting to speak like them a little) hahahha! I love C!

Fashion- Again had trouble getting dressed presentably today, although I did sleep amazingly compared to prior nights (thank-you room divider!) Wearing: cashmere sweater (grandmother hand-me-down =] ), jeans (less than $20, from somewhere), black boots (they aren't actually as shiny as they look. eternity fashion $cheap), little black bag ( $5 Sal Arm), & jewelry.

Pictures of my new ROOM DIVIDER (...I know I'm too excited about this...)-

Yay!

Thought- Urban environments (cities) seem to come up with characteristics either of fear, danger or excitement. The idea of cities being dangerous places started all the way back when cities started growing and being the main hubs of so much of what America is... it's the fear of the new. There was this rise of large masses of people moving out of small towns to huge cities. There were deaths happening that weren't just from old age, rather they were people getting hit by trains, trolley-cars, and people dying in tenement housing. So early on cities were "tagged" with this idea of danger and peril. People became over stimulated with this danger, it was in their everyday lives and they read it in the news... Then they watched it in film, now we see it in everything: movies, music, everyday, news, advertising and tv. People seem to have been so overstimulated by these emotions that they've become normal. What do you think?

Hello My Name Is: Freshmen (Jocelyn)

Divvy It Up! [Mommy Visited]

Convo around NYC- Swine Flu, 3 words, WASH YOUR HANDS! Which somehow I've been doing and of course am sick, blowing my nose everything four minutes. Sore throat, runny nose, cough, no fever yet... its bound to come.

Now- I'm sitting in bed, the air is freezing, BUT! --- I made a dorm room divider a couple of hours ago and besides the blisters from putting multiple screws into the wall without a screw driver, its like a whole new world in here! Thank God.
...So basically, I havent really slept in the past week... My roommate, C, is one of those crazy Parsons students: tons of homework! Last night as I was sniffling my way to partial sleep at 2 AM in the morning, I had a epiphany, "I need a room divider!" Well the idea started off as a canopy, but the fabrics on those things don't really block much light, and I decided if I tried to put a heavier fabric I would end up suffocating myself (not a great plan). Then I thought of a room divider, I mean how hard could it be? Get a couple of screws, some wire, some fabric, my roommate has a sewing machine and there we go, my late nights of being kept up by lights woud come to a end (hopefully). My mother came to my dorm around 2 PM, on buisnes in NYC, and after going through some general dorm room complaints, I told her my plan. Then my father was called, who kind of trashed the idea (I love you daddy), and said it would just give my roommate the idea that she wouldnt have to be as quite...I still had strong belief... So my mother and I went to Kmart, to the hardware store, the fabric store, back to Kmart, realized she then had to go to catch her train and I was left on my own to assemble my concoction.

& I hate to say I told you so, but as we speak (or write/read) I have a gorgeous purple black iridescent taffeta room divider, and it is currently blocking light from the other side of the room =]

Fashion- Luckily I ravaged the racks of Salvation Army earlier this week and was able to convince my suite mate to squeeze my purchases into her laundry (thank-you), otherwise with my current state of being sick this section would be rather boring. But since I got dressed today, Wearing: stripped v-neck shirt (buffalo exchange $ cheap), izzue.com blue jacket ($10! Sal Arm), tights (2 for $20 express), boots (on sale at UO).

So, I'm off to sleep, but would like to leave off with this thought from class today (Class = Utopian Imagination) --- I struggle with the ideas of utopias in general, how can people say they have made a utopia when it is obvious that the world around them is struggling? And to me it more seems like an escape mechanism...but, what's your idea of a Utopia?

Gnight

Hello My Name Is: Sick (Jocelyn)

Currently Listening to Jill Scott [Philly Pride]

Daily conversation in NYC- today has been about Kanye West of course. Poor guy he really made a boo-boo, even Obama basically said he was a jerk... 

Why I'm writing a blog- this morning I awoke, tired and with not enough sleep, but also with this new feeling of wanting to share... I have so many people to keep in touch with while in college, so the idea of a blog had previously crossed my mind, but for some reason this morning it sounded ever more appeasing.

Now-At the moment I'm sitting in my dorm, smack in the Lower East Side. I'm trying to think about the point I'm going to have in these blogs, or if I can find one. Some options:

• Fashion Blog- (which was my sole idea this morning) I would take a picture of what I'm wearing that day     ( <--- ), give some details b/c I am a very thrifty shopper, and maybe say what I see in style in NYC these days.
• What's Going on in NYC- ...self explanatory...
• My Life- talk about whats going on, roommates, classes, parties, famous people seen....
• A Compilation of All 3...

I'll probably start with the last option for now. 

Fashion- It was pretty warm out today. Wearing: black t-shirt v-neck (banana republic $1.99), legging jeans (less than $20), studded gladiator sandals (splurge: ~ $60), loads of bracelets, necklaces, rings ($ ? collected over the years). Pretty laid-back today...

Class- Today I had class from 10am -11:40am, but my teacher ended up letting us out at 11:15ish =] We actually had a great discussion about modernity and modernism, seminar style of course. A main question in the class, Why do so many New Yorker's have such a hard exterior?

-I think...since NYC is such an overwhelming place, with so many people, tourists, advertisements, ect... NYers try to make their own "little cities" inside their own huge city, compiled of a group of people they care about...and so when people like me walk down the street smiling at all the random NYer passerby's, I get a cold shoulder, b/c I am not one of their inner circles... (?)

Let me know what you think!

Hello My Name Is: First Time Blogger (Jocelyn)

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